"gahp"

1: describes the action of hanging up the phone. eg. she 'gahp' my phone call.
2: a moment of heartbreak. eg. everytime she 'gahp' my phone call, my heart 'gahp' with it.

and it was a painful night as my heart shattered, went hopeless, as each phone call hangs up.

but i deserve it for what i have done.

it was a long night as well, waited for 4.5hrs cluelessly by the gate beside the road, hoping to see her appearance, but to no avail.

i feel i'm like a terrorist, burglar, suspicious personel. Hanging around by the road pacing up and down, sitting in a dark corner or by the lamp post, dressed in a black-and-white stripe polo tee and jeans, with a hand-carry big bag if i was a passer-by i would have informed the police which was only 50 metres away stationed in a guard post to nap me-so-suspicious person.

focusing on every sound i heard, observing every movement a far, i wished the person that appeared was you. I waited and waited, and would still continue even if it rained, just to see you again. i miss you, i love you. This will not change, and will not be shared. My love is just for you.